I’m going to discuss, briefly, a little about self-termination programming a programmed MK-Ultra military unit, often times referred to as a Super Soldier, will have surface from time-to-time. Self-termination programing is not like an ordinary urge to kill yourself; it’s an order. Did you get that beloved readers of this blog, IT’S AN ORDER! Remember what I’ve instructed people in the past; as an MK-Ultra programmee, you DON’T ASK QUESTIONS, YOU JUST FOLLOW ORDERS- Period! Self-termination orders, which surfaced for me a year ago, in November of 2011, were the most profound set of circumstances relating to my own health and mortality I’ve ever experienced. I was pacing, pacing, pacing; I was pacing up and down my hallway with a .45 ACP pressed against the temple of my skull. Orders had surfaced and as my personality fractured, I was in for the fight of my life. It was time to end my life. I had no desire to terminate my life, I had to honor my programmers. Orders had surfaced and there was no way out; I had to discharge a round into my skull. If you’ve ever experienced this, you know how miserable and scary this experience can be. I don’t know what kept me alive, I was in a predicament. I literally needed to end my life because I was supposed to. Please know, programming is not merely suggestion; programming runs very, very deep into the psychology of a specifically-programmed person. My brain hemispheres seemed to split. I cannot state my perception is correct on this matter, but that is what I felt happened. One hemisphere was hell-bent to carry out the orders and was ready to discharge a bullet; the other side of my brain was certain it didn’t have to happen. After a struggle which lasted an hour, I was thrilled I was able to side-step the programming and put my gun down. The battle was over; the will to survive was able to override the programmed orders. I was one of the fortunate people who’ve had this kind of programming. Many people leave a gruesome mess for somebody else to clean up. As I stated in a previous post, many MK-Ultra survivors say self-termination programming, often referred to as “omega” programming under the Monarch system, is the most fallible programming an individual can receive. I can tell you the overwhelming need to honor my orders was so strong, I cannot relate to the reader how powerful and effective other levels of programming are and how deep the programming runs.
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